Jane!

I'm a fake.

2006-12-01T21:03:24Z

If you've been reading this livejournal knowing me as Jane, a college student from Southern California, I would like to come clean:

I am fake.

My name is not Jane, it is Jinra. I am 22, and a Cal State University of Fullerton student. My real livejournal is located here. The purpose of my deception this whole time was to fufill a senior honors project required for my graduation in which I studied the nature of how people respond to gender in weblogs. I wanted to observe any differences or any similarities in how people respond to weblogs in which a gender is known. For half a year, I posted the same content in two journals; 1 female (this journal) and 1 male to see how people would respond even if the content between the two journals remained the same. John, The male journal, is located here.

My study has come to an end. For ethical purposes of this project, I would like to publicly apologize to all I have deceived this whole time. If you have any questions about my project, feel free to contact me at jinra_@hotmail.com.

jane596 @ 2006-11-30T11:31:00

2006-11-30T19:31:29Z

The other day on HBO, I watched Laura Greenfield's "Thin" documentary. The documentary was about the experience of women at a rehab center in Florida for anorexia and bulimia. HEART-BREAKING. I've never watched anything so intense, and so emotional. It definitely had that 'reality tv' quality to it, but it wasn't cheesy and there was nothing fake about women resembling corpses. It's so tough what these women have to suffer. At the same time, it's pretty alarming that eating disorders have spawned it's own culture, evident in the countless livejournal communities dedicated to those with eating disorders. Although, a handful of them aren't purposely created to encourage people to starve themselves...it's still reallllllllly sad.

Although the center featured mainly women patients...you have to wonder about the men. I know for a fact that men have eating disorders as well...the focus seems to always be women when people are talking eating disorders.

jane596 @ 2006-11-24T12:46:00

2006-11-24T20:46:18Z

Remember when I vowed to quit smoking?
I smoked a cigarette yesterday after being....ALMOST 3 MONTHS CIGARETTE FREE! I totally blew it. And what's worse is now, I am craving a cigarette soooo badly. If it wasn't for Thanksgiving, I wouldn't have caved in. After dinner, me and my 7 cousins hung out and started 'catching up' and in the process they all started to smoke. Smoking runs in our family! Despite this, there is something I am quite proud of right now:

NOT DOING ANY SHOPPING ON BLACK FRIDAY.

Funny, I can resist the temptation of bargain/discount shopping, but I can't resist the temptation of a cigarette.

jane596 @ 2006-11-22T01:26:00

2006-11-22T09:26:22Z

SHHH!

RANDOM CONFESSION TIME: I love Jojo.
A lot. I'm normally not big on teenage popstars, but damn she can BELT IT OUT like no other. Ugh. I wish I had her talent. But unfortunately, I am old and a talentless hack.

jane596 @ 2006-11-19T22:17:00

2006-11-20T06:17:28Z

Oh man, I've been busy busy busy! School's been hectic, and I've been having boyfriend issues. Thank God, or Allah or Buddha etc...for Thanksgiving Break!

About the boyfriend...
Things are coming to an end. I've been with this guy for 4 months now, and it seems like all he wants me for is money. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a trust fund baby. I'm a plain...Jane (haha), full-time student and part-time wage slave. As it is, it's hard to have enough money for MYSELF. Anyway, I am really getting annoyed by how he's always late in repaying me for money I lent him. I'm so annoyed, I'm starting to wonder what it was that I saw in him in the first place.

Ugh.

Excessive Pot Use

2006-11-07T07:03:17Z

Excessive Pot Use
So, my neighbors are big time potheads.
I'm not against pot/marijuana use...but I think it should be consumed in moderation. Not everyday! I just don't understand how people can smoke pot everyday -- and still manage to find the energy to go to school and/or work (or both)! I've gone to work stoned before -- and boy was it a struggle. These days, I hardly do it. I'm just toooooo busy. And I've been trying to stay healthy...doing pot would defeat that purpose of staying healthy.

jane596 @ 2006-11-05T21:44:00

2006-11-06T05:44:03Z

Busy, busy, busy!
I hate this time of the year. The semester is almost done, yet I still have got a lot of work that remains...tests to study for -- AHHHH!!!! On top of that, I think I'm getting sick. Not good. I want to say that I'm excited for my one week Thanksgiving break from school, but you know I'll be doing lots of work and studying, then.

I could really go for a visit to the local karaoke bar. Oh yeah... guilty pleasure?

Karaoke Bars.
The end.

jane596 @ 2006-10-29T22:31:00

2006-10-30T06:27:38Z

How is it that Janet Jackson's been able to lose 40lbs and we still have Fat Mariah?
Perhaps she's letting herself go, much like she's letting her own career go. I miss thin, No.1 hits producing Mariah.

jane596 @ 2006-10-27T00:16:00

2006-10-27T07:11:24Z

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/10/25/gay.marriage/index.html

Same sex marriages are okay in Jersey! This is great.
As a straight person, I am all for same sex marriages. I see nothing wrong with two people that are in love with each other that much. They're not hurting anyone -- why not?

jane596 @ 2006-10-24T00:00:00

2006-10-24T07:04:46Z

I tried to cook today. Boy was it disastrous.
I must've been way delusional/super ambitious earlier today when I picked out a low-carb chicken paella recipe from some website. I didn't put enough tarragon, and the rice didn't cook all the way so it was a bit hard. And to believe...I thought I was decent at cooking. I should probably just stick to eating. And if I do cook, it should not be for anyone else. Wouldn't want anyone to...die.

Who wants a sandwich?

In other news, meeting my boyfriend's parents for the first time was okay. They're nice people. They laughed when I tried to be funny, and not in the nervous-because-we-don't-think-you're-funny-and/or-you-scare-us way. It was kinda like the movies, they busted out with a bunch of embarassing pictures of my boyfriend in his youth! He's not happy about that. What else...I was invited to spend time with them next weekend! They totally love me.

I'm so in.

jane596 @ 2006-10-21T00:39:00

2006-10-21T07:34:57Z

Things are getting pretty serious between my boyfriend and I...(yes I have one)

How serious?

I'm meeting his parents this weekend. For the first time. Nervous, much?
Advice, anyone?

jane596 @ 2006-10-18T05:58:00

2006-10-18T06:03:19Z

http://msnbc.msn.com/id/15301565/?GT1=8618

Am I reading this right? The VATICAN blessed a Pope cartoon? Can you imagine what Sunday catechism classes will be like from now on?

"Hello children, I am Sister Mary Catherine Hope Paige Rose. Today we will talk about the holy commandments, the holy grail, the holy cross, and the holy Pope cartoon. Blessed be."

Lame.

jane596 @ 2006-10-10T22:45:00

2006-10-11T05:40:17Z

I went to this house party the other night where I witnessed an alarming amount of musk and/or cologne happy gentlemen. Being there was like that scene in Anchorman where Brian Fantana puts on the panther musk -- "What is that? Smells like a turd covered in burnt hair!"

I can't stand excessive cologne use -- why do guys do that?
It doesn't attract the ladies...it repulses them!

Science of Sleep

2006-10-06T05:07:20Z

Oh man, long time no see livejournal. I've been sick these past couple days...feeling better finally! But now that I'm feeling better, I am being under academic attack. A lot of things are due soon. Goodtimes.

Anyway, the weekend is almost here. I'm really looking forward to seeing Michel Gondry's, "Science of Sleep" movie. A lot of my friends are digging it. It looks fantastic!

jane596 @ 2006-10-01T22:03:00

2006-10-02T04:59:27Z

Seriously, what is this?

Stuffonmycat.com -- yes. An actual website dedicated to pictures of cats with...things on them. Sure the idea may sound cutesy and fluffy and what-not...but some of the things people put on cats on that site is a little overboard. And quite degrading to cats. There are pictures of actual remotes and game controllers on cats! If you were the cat, wouldn't you feel hurt or bothered at least? It's not like people are putting shit on us and snapping photographs of that.

I'm so disgusted.
And at the same time -- who has time for that shit? Creating a website...putting objects on your cat and taking pictures of that just to submit to a website? Geez.

Back from Vegas!

2006-09-19T03:32:59Z

Las Vegas at night.
ps. This is the view from my hotel.

Taken by me!

jane596 @ 2006-09-10T23:19:00

2006-09-11T06:19:38Z

I made that once every other weekend trip to visit my parents. They seem to be doing fine, they've recently welcomed satellite TV into their lives. I'm jealous. I don't have satellite at the moment...it was kinda illegal when I had it so I had to take it down. Sadness. I digress.

I'm kinda glad to be living away from my parents. We seem to get along real well now that I don't live there anymore. We hardly fight as much as before. If we do, it's easy to get over it. And now that I don't see them very often, I actually...look forward to these weekend visits. Normally weekends over there at their house are very quiet. I obviously don't go out partying or painting the town red. It's nice to escape that scene to go...home.

In other news, I recently acquired a parking ticket that I'm going to go and contest. Wish me luck!

I can have my life back again!

2006-09-08T07:04:18Z

Living from paycheck to paycheck blows. I'm so excited about payday tomorrow -- definitely looking forward to a decent meal and GAS. Gas is almost the reason for my existence, haha.

Damn the OC and all of it's freeways and traffic, and the fact that everything is so spread out and public transportation is shit!!

jane596 @ 2006-09-05T22:42:00

2006-09-06T05:43:48Z

I really need to quit smoking. I was feeling a little daring and adventurous today when I made the decision of taking a flight of stairs to my class. Just one flight.

Worst decision ever.

I seriously wanted to die. I've also noticed lately that it's real easy for me to feel tired and fatigued. When I'm not even doing physical labor! Isn't that sad? That's sad.

This will be so hard.

jane596 @ 2006-09-02T19:11:00

2006-09-03T02:15:49Z

Ugh. I hate that I have the worst luck with technology. My highspeed internet connection only works when it feels like it -- which is never. Hence my lack of livejournal activity.

I had the recent opportunity of listening to samples of the new Fergie album, "The Dutchess." I have to admit, that London Bridge song is painfully catchy. (Shhhh don't tell anyone else!) I'm not quite sure what she means by london bridge in the song -- something tells me it's not exactly about....london bridges. If anyone has any insight...lemme know.

A friend of mine is planning on celebrating a birthday in Vegas. I'm SO there.

wow

2006-08-28T23:28:16Z

I almost forgot I had this here. Guess I've been kinda caught up with getting into "school mode." Let me tell you, it's been really tough. Dropping classes, adding classes, talking to advisors...I can't believe it's another semester already! I'm still stuck in summer mode! I'm sure by the time I get used to this whole going to school thing, the semester will already be over.

American Idol Auditions?

2006-08-15T19:06:18Z

I don't know how I know this, but the American Idol auditions are coming up soon at the Rose Bowl next month. Half of me wants me to pursue my secret dreams of fame as an American Idol winner, and the other half of me is telling me that I need to wake up. Guess I'll stick to singing in the shower. And in the car.

Oh man...school starts really soon. It might be useless to try to get myself back into "school mode." That doesn't really kick in until December -- the very end of the semester! I really hope I'm able to get all the classes I need this semester, just so that I don't end up graduating when I'm 50 or something. We'll see. I guess it's probably time to party it up before school starts!

...I think a trip to Vegas is in order!

jane596 @ 2006-07-26T22:38:00

2006-07-27T05:37:16Z

*All about yourself...the survey.*
All about yourself...
First name?::	Jane
Middle name?::	don't have one
Like your name?::	I guess?
Named after anyone?::	no one i know of
Any nicknames?::	jaynie, jay-jay
Age?::	21
Birthdate?::	5-09-85
Birthplace?::	The "OC"
Time you were born?::	can't remember
Current location?::	my apartment
Height?::	5'6"
Like your height?::	yes
Eye color?::	brown
Contacts/glasses?::	sometimes...sigh
Hair color?::	brown
Natural hair color?::	brown
Dye your hair often?::	nope
Righty or lefty?::	left
Your favorite...
Type of music?::	pop, rock, hip hop
Band or singer?::	Cold Play...Christina Aguilera
TV show?::	The Simpsons, Friends, the news
Movie?::	too many to name! pirates was okay...
TV channel?::	i don't watch tv that often
Radio station?::	I don't listen to the radio much. I'm an mp3 person.
Place to be?::	anywhere with friends
Thing to do?::	eating, sleeping, not studying
Food?::	hamburgers!
Non alcoholic drink?::	orange juice
Alcoholic drink?::	beer
Animal?::	cat
Holiday?::	Christmas
Season?::	summer
Sport?::	basketball
Place to shop?::	anywhere with a sale rack
Clothing brand?::	doesn't really matter, i'll wear anything as long as it looks good
Scent?::	brownies baking in the oven
Restaurant?::	Red Robin's
Fruit?::	strawberries
Vegetable?::	tomato
Fast food restaurant?::	In-N-Out
Pizza topping?::	sausages
Ice cream flavor?::	chocolate
Magazine?::	people, newsweek, time
City?::	the one i'm living in now
Color?::	pink
Number?::	2
This or that...
Chocolate or vanilla?::	vanilla
Pepsi or coke?::	coke
Hot or cold?::	hot
Black or white?::	black
Dog or cat?::	dog
French toast or pancakes?::	pancakes
French fries or onion rings?::	french fries
Hamburger or hot dog?::	hamburger
Pepperoni or sausage?::	sausage
Britney or Christina?::	Christina
McDonalds or Burger King?::	Burger King
50 Cent or Eminem?::	50 Cent
Canada or Mexico?::	Canada
Hug or kiss?::	both
Movies or TV?::	both
Truth or dare?::	truth
Do you...
Shower daily?::	yes
Sing in the shower?::	yes
Like to sing?::	yes
Like to dance?::	yes
Smoke?::	no
Drink?::	socially, yes
Cuss?::	fuck yes
Talk to yourself?::	of course
Believe in yourself?::	sure
Play an instrument?::	no
Go to school?::	yes
Go to college?::	yes, unfortunately
Have a job?::	yeah that too
Like your job?::	sometimes
Want to get married?::	yes
Want to have kids?::	yes
Get along with your parents?::	sometimes
Get along with your siblings?::	sometimes
Drive?::	yes, of course
Random...
Do you think you're trustworthy?::	yes
Think your funny?::	sometimes
Ever toilet papered someones house?::	nope
Gone garbage can tipping?::	no?
What are your parents names?::	Cindy and Ron
Siblings names?::	Noah
Do you wash your hands frequently?::	yes
How many time a day do you brush your teeth?::	twice
Collect anything?::	postcards, dvds,
Ever been in love?::	no
In love right now?::	no
What color pants are you wearing right now?::	black
How does your hair look?::	wet, just finished showering
Ever had your heartbroken?::	yes
Ever broken the law?::	yes
Been arrested?::	no
Been out of the country?::	yes
Can you stick your fist in your mouth?::	no, i wish!
When was the last time you got drunk?::	last night, haha
Do you do drugs?::	no
When was the last time you were high on anything?::	never
Do you prefer the lights on or off?::	on
Would you ever get plastic surgery?::	no
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?::	boxers
Do you like to laugh?::	yes
Ever had a bloody nose?::	yes
Have you ever caught a fish?::	yes
What was the last thing you ate?::	watermelon
What time do you go to bed?::	varies, but i'm in bed by 2am
What's your favorite color?::
Do you like to give or recieve?::
Are you obsessed with anything/anyone?::
Do you live alone?::
Do you own a blender?::
Do you like the snow?::
Ever been up a mountain?::
Ever been rootin'?::
Do you like surprises?::
Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

jane596 @ 2006-07-23T22:28:00

2006-07-27T05:27:22Z

lot of my friends, left and right have been getting slammed with jury duty notices in the mail. I’m 21, and I’ve yet to receive a single notice. Call me crazy, but I’m slightly interested in the idea of participating on an actual jury! Dad actually had to participate in a jury for some trial about someone that’s actually collected too many speeding tickets. Almost killed people because of speeding, too! The trial was super short, and he got compensated for it. Missing out on work or school doesn’t sound that bad! I didn’t know people get compensated for serving on a jury.